Well....tomorrow is the big day! The day my heart will be broken again, I will send my sweet Weston out into the world of public schools and bad influences. He will have to make choices and have consequences for actions he may not understand. I can't imagine going through everyday without him here with me. It sounds like I am losing him forever and I know that it's only 7 hours a day, but I have had him with me everyday for the last 5 years. Now he will be gone 36 hours a week.....for 36 hours a week, I won't know what he is doing or if someone is being mean to him or if he is sad, I can't be there to hug him or give him a kiss. I wish I could just keep him with me. People say when you have kids your heart is walking around outside your body and you have to protect that, how can I do that when he isn't with me. The worst part is that I have to do this again in 12 months with Rawley and then what am I suppose to do with my time. I am a Mommy, this is what I do. It's going by too quickly I just want to keep them little. If you are reading this and you have a little one squeeze them tight and enjoy it, because next thing you know they will be going off to 4th grade or starting Kindergarten and Pre K. I love my boys so much and I am just not ready to let go. People think I am crazy especially Chris, but I guess you don't understand how it feels until it happens to you the first time.
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